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[Apr. 1st, 2007|03:21 pm] |
i still haven't used this in a while, but all is good. i guess i don't have time to sit and sulk and write it all down cause things are going pretty damn well and i'm busy, all the time, it seems, even for me! either way, life is good.
i hope everyone out there in myspace-land is doing well! :o) |
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[Aug. 13th, 2006|02:11 pm] |
i haven't updated this thing in a while
but i'm still alive
back from europe
back from visiting my brother, aunt & uncle and camping
work is going well, i'm finally doing my special assignment with radios and love it
not going to the police academy (yet, if at all, ever)
grad school starts in 2 weeks ... i'm kinda scared, public policy administration, AH!
i'm happy too ... things are going well :o) |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|11:56 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pink Floyd - Dark Side of the Moon | ] |
i'm in a weird mood. too many decisions to make and none of them really stand out as to a winner.
Option A:
continue to work full time at csuf until i graduate with my masters
get accepted at either csuf or csulb and attend grad school part time
get my masters in public policy administration spring '08
choose my next career option
Option B:
accept csusf's offer to become a cop (pending i don't get into grad school)
attend the santa rosa police academy for 4 months
start working as a cop at csusf dec '06
get accepted at csusf fall '07 and attend grad school part time
get my masters in public policy administration
Option C:
continue to work full time at csuf and take a year off from school
so really, option C isn't really an option, i figured i should just put it in there for no reason at all. i could choose option B even if I do get into csulb or csuf but i just don't know right now. there really aren't too many decisions to make, i either stay and go to grad school or i move and become a cop and attend grad school after becoming a cop. the time lines look like this
Option A:
attend school fall '06 - spring '08
after spring '08 become a cop
6 months police academy
6 months field training program
done spring(ish) '09
Option b:
attend police academy july '06 - dec '06
field training program dec '06 - june '07
attend school fall '07
graduate and done spring '09
either way i'm done with the cop/school thing by spring 2009. moving away from family and friends down here to move up there really is weighing heavy. my brother and his family will me closer and eventually in about 4-5 years my parents will be living near my brother. i'll have more of a reason to stay up there or transfer to yuba city pd eventually.
i wish this was more black and white for me, but it's not. i know a few people in the sf area and one person might be up there, so at least i'll know a few people up there. that and i know a few people at the police department already, not well, but i know i get along with them right now.
i really wish i didn't want to do the cop thing cause i really want to smoke a bowl right now (maybe due to the music?) |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 25th, 2006|10:07 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SLO Dispatch Center | ] |
i'm doing this, this summer with allison
that's all for now |
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[Feb. 13th, 2006|01:22 pm] |
| You Are a Newborn Soul | 
You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.
Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.
Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul |
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| hahaha i'm THE man! |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|01:31 pm] |
Your results:
You are James T. Kirk (Captain)
| James T. Kirk (Captain) |
| 60% |
| Chekov |
| 50% |
| Uhura |
| 50% |
| Will Riker |
| 50% |
| Deanna Troi |
| 50% |
| Leonard McCoy (Bones) |
| 45% |
| Beverly Crusher |
| 45% |
| An Expendable Character (Redshirt) |
| 45% |
| Geordi LaForge |
| 40% |
| Jean-Luc Picard |
| 35% |
| Worf |
| 35% |
| Data |
| 29% |
| Spock |
| 27% |
| Mr. Scott |
| 20% |
| Mr. Sulu |
| 0% |
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You are often exaggerated and over-the-top
in your speech and expressions.
You are a romantic at heart and a natural leader.
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Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|10:08 pm] |
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| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the hum of the computer | ] |
It's been a while since I've updated in here. Not that anyone really reads this anymore, but to let anyone who actually reads this know what I'm doing for the rest of the month, here it is...
This Monday through Wednesday I'm working for 
I'm basically monitoring 4 radio frequencies of the 42 they'll be using and I'll be sort of a "dispatcher" and relay messages and such. Nothing that I think will be too hard, but it should be fun and hopefully if it goes well I'll also do it for the
This weekend I'm working day shift on Friday and Saturday.
The following week I'm going to drive up north to visit these characters 
The last week of the month I'm going up to Cal Poly SLO for mardi gras and work for 
Seems like I'm all booked til March as far as weekends go :-\
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|07:07 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
i just spent $110 applying to CSU LB and Fullerton for grad school.
ahhhh |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|02:51 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | thea | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Phish - Darien Lake Jam #1 | ] |
I think, like most people, I have a hard time taking a chance. If it's a lose-lose situation or a situation that I'll never have to deal with, worry about or ever confront again, I don't have a hard time going balls out. I don't know what in the hell made me freeze with Thea. Ok so maybe I kinda do.
She's that girl that you want but could never have or can never have or probably won't ever have. I've known her for 3 years from camp but I really don't know why she's my thorn in my paw. You want what you can't have, and I can't have her because she lives in nor cal and who knows if she's even interested back.
All I have to say is that it was an amazing kiss. Tension, passion and just ... you know how you sometimes get that out of body feeling or the "I never knew this could happen" kinda feeling, yah well, that. And for those of you tracking my sexual repression due to the 2nd coming of Christ being near ... nothing else happened. I was good, a little too good. That's where the whole "take a chance" part of this entry comes in. Why was I scared to make a move to do something more? Just cause I think I have about 1% of a chance to one day even live close enough to where I might have a chance with her, I wouldn't take that chance now because I might screw it up for then? And the fact that she eventually told me later she wanted to do more ... ::sigh:: Plus she had a new year's resolution, no kissing and such with people on first dates until it's somewhat past the first few dates, and only with people that she's dating. I was good, I really didn't want to make her break her new year's resolution. It's in me to put her in the position to make a decision and for me to be persistent about it. All in all, it was her decision, she made the move on me, although it didn't help that I was only 1cm away from her lips.
I do have to say, it is one of the most awkward and great kisses. It ranks up there with the San Pedro tippy toe kiss and any other one that I can't think of at the moment. Oh and just for the record, had I actually done more then kiss her, she would have fit into my "sexual repression" because I said I'd have no more meaningless such activities. She'd definitely not be meaningless, well to me at least.
It's 3am and I'm not at work, but, I am doing laundry and I hope it's done cause I really want to go to bed! |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Postal Service | ] |
2005... the summary
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
go to traffic school, went to west point, get a verbal reprimand at work, quit my first real job
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i can't remember if i made one, but i don't think i did!
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope
4. Did anyone close to you die?
nope
5. What countries did you visit?
none
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
to have more time for myself and my friends. i really don't take time for myself, ever.
7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
you know how i am with dates, i guess nothing important really happened
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
going to another pd which will set up the next stage of my life
9. What was your biggest failure?
i failed to truly enjoy the moment and to be in the moment. i'm always thinking of what's next, where i have to be, what i should be doing. i don't really take the time to sit, relax and enjoy what's going on in front of me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
besides my usual cough? not really
11. What was the best thing you bought?
the best thing i bought? i suppose all the tools that i should have had as a technician but never really had. thanks ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) teksalot for your help
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
47_stude's graduation
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
can't really think of anyone ... i suppose that's good?!
14. Where did most of your money go?
bills, my truck, alcohol, fast food lol
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
knowing it was my last year at cp
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
any song off round room
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier
b) thinner or fatter? thinner
c) richer or poorer? less poor ... but isn't that richer?
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
praying
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
wasting my time in traffic, but i don't really have a choice for that. i suppose it should be ... worrying about what's next.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i fly up to my brother's on friday to spend it with his family and my parents. i'll be there until monday.
21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
nope
22. How many one-night stands?
none ... they all came back for more!
23. What was your favorite TV program?
rescue me
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not really, i can't think of anyone that i don't like
25. What was the best book you read?
i don't read books, but i did just get A Happy Death by A. Camus
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
vaux
27. What did you want and get?
a new cell phone ... treo
a new computer ... piece by piece
new tires ... only cause the old ones were bald
new tools ... for lighting gigs!
28. What did you want and not get?
nothing really
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
lol, me see films? please!
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went drinking around midnight with a couple people for my birthday. I turned 22. I'll be 23 in less then 2 weeks.
31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
finding love
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
i'm a person of routine ... no new clothes. just the old ones got larger.
33. What kept you sane?
sleep
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Natalie Portman
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
i'm too stupid to keep up with that stuff
36. Who did you miss?
my aunt mary
37. Who was the best new person you met?
too many people for too many different reasons
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
I learned that your friends are there for you just as much as you are there for them. I never really realized how much I depend on my friends because I like to be independent, but I started to realize I need them more then I think.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Can't I live while I'm young.
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| so this is the 10 year plan email i sent out... |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
10 Year Plan
Jan 06 - June 06 Finish bachelor's degree at Cal Poly Pomona
Aug 06 - Start Master's program at Cal State Fullerton (~3 yrs to complete)
May 09 - Graduate from CSUF
June 09 - Start looking for police depts that are hiring, hopefully CSULB PD
After getting picked up by a PD, enter the academy (7 months)
Stay at PD for 3-5 years, which means earliest move up to Yuba City between 2013 and 2015
So there it is, my 10 year plan. Deal with it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|06:28 pm] |
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| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | donna typing | ] |
After getting the email from my dad I forwarded it to my mom and said,
"this is one of the nicest things dad has ever said to me..."
To which she said,
"Yeah. I agree.
Your dad is always bragging about you. You should have heard him last
Sunday at the Barnes party. He is very proud of you.
Mom" |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|06:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lucy typing in dispatch | ] |
I decided to type up my newly revised 10 year plan and this is what I got from my dad. It's the small things like this that make me proud to have a dad like him. He's odd in his own way of expressing himself, but this time he's pretty clear about it...
Brian, I like your 10 Year Plan.
I Know it will be another accomplishment in your life
and maybe not so easy but don't give up.
I know Mom, me, your relatives and friends will be behind you all the way.
Love,
Dad
If you're interested in what my 10 year plan is ... I should have it up here in a short time. |
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| My email to Melita |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|05:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | station 24 blabbing about something | ] |
Hey, I had a dream with you in it last night. It wasn't sexual, I'm sorry, but it was ... odd.
Ok, so I went to a small venue to see a concert. You have to understand the history of the guy I went to see in the dream. **Real Life: I like the band Phish. Their main guy has a side band that he's playing with now since Phish broke up.** Well, you were either playing on stage with him or somewhere really close to the stage. I was standing to the side of the stage with my friend Eric and his girlfriend, but there was something between us where we couldn't exactly talk to each other close up. Somehow you were going to hang out with Trey (guy from Phish) after the concert because you were playing in the band with him or something. I asked... well more yelled if we could hang out better. I figured if you knew Trey, maybe I could get to meet him too.
Well I yelled at you if I could hang out with you after and you said no. **Real Life: You also have to take into consideration that it is rumored that Trey has a cocaine habit.** Jokingly I asked if you were too busy for me because you were going to snort up a few lines and you gave me this devilish grin.
After that scene somehow it was the end of the show and I was able to get back stage. I was walking around the back stage area and opened a door and there you were doing a line of coke. You looked up at me and mumbled something like "this shit is the bomb" and did another line. For some reason you got either angry or just aggressive and you pushed me up against the wall, kind of like you were either going to try and kick my ass or rape me.
Either way, I woke up right after that. I didn't get to meet my guitar hero Trey, I witnessed watching you do two lines of coke, you played in a band with my guitar hero, and we didn't get to hook up. So that's my story. There were other things about the concert part of the dream where Trey played with Mike. Mike was also in Phish too. They were playing an acoustic song and Mike was playing the guitar. Mike started to play fluffhead (a Phish song) that Phish didn't play the last 4 years of their existence. They got through all the instrumental parts til the part where they yell "Fluffhead" and then Mike started to play another song. It's like they were teasing us because we hadn't heard the song in years, but then they went and played a different song anyway.
It was an odd dream. Just thought I'd let you know, since you were in my dream and all ... and on drugs. |
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| i think i'm in love |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|12:57 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
I've basically fallen head over heels for my new toy
 my new treo 650
Seriously, I don't know how I was able to deal with life before I had it. ... ok so maybe not. But it is easier then carrying around a day planner. I had an old palm pilot but I didn't use it much because it was always in my truck or some place other then where I was. If you know me for about a hour, you'll know I'm married to my phone. What better place to have a day planner, then in my phone. Plus I can also chat, email, take pictures, take video, text message, and even make a phone call. I knew I was a geek before, but this just reinforces it! lol
The whole idea is to backup the info on the treo onto a computer. Well the one I'm currently using is a piece of old technology, 800mhz style. I spent another $500 and upgraded my computer to a 2.4ghz with a gig of ram and 200gig hard drive. Hopefully that will hold me over for a year or so until I can get my mac.
Six days left at the good ol' work. As each day passes, I get more and more shit, but it's worth it. We had a dispatcher quit about 4 months ago and after she gave her 2 weeks, no one really said much to her. We didn't have a going away party or anything. No one has said anything, but they've gotta be having one for me. I told my mom if she wanted to do anything she could email the chief and plan something, but I told her it's usually a surprise. She hasn't said anything since.
It's really bittersweet to leave this place. This was my first real job. Sure you might consider being a stock person at Ethan Allen, or a sales rep for Guess and Sunglass Hut a real job, but I don't. I suppose it's because it's the first job I've bad in the career that I seem to be going on. It's my first full time job and a place where I've matured. I've learned when to be serious, I've learned when to be funny and I've learned that it really does take a special type of person to do the type of job I do. I'm not the best at it, but I have pride in what I do. My dad came in last week to visit and drop off some papers for me. He was really ... I really don't know how to say it cause we really never discussed it, but I would imagine he's proud of me. I had a few sergeants and officers stop in do so some work and comment on me when I introduced them. I don't deal well in that type of situation, I'd rather they say good things about me in private. I dunno why, I just would rather hear my dad tell me what the person said. odd. Anyway, my dad brought my grandfather in this past Tuesday. Now that was a real treat. The chief met both as well as most people that work for the department. It was pretty fun to have my grandfather there. I showed him around he station and he talked eventually was talking about airplanes with my boss.
I really don't know how to feel about the whole new job thing. I'm a bit, well, I always like to know what I'm getting myself into, and right now ... I don't. I'm going to have a floating schedule and so I have no clue what I'll be working.
Oh well such is life and I'm tired.
goodnight all |
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| Email from my Dad |
[Nov. 4th, 2005|07:22 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
I just got this email from my Dad. :) I get the same type from my grandmother lol
Brian, how are you doing? No I'am not your mother!
I just decided to used her E-mail until she kicks me out of this chair.
She said to warm this old computer up but she's still out in the family room.
You know how much time it takes me to warm this computer and type this up.
So you know how long I've been here.
Oh she said "hey honey" so I'll say good bye for now.
But before I get kicked out of this chair I have your 11 light safety cables all done.
-Dad
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